Happy Anniversary to the love of my life!

I want you to know that since the day we met I've fallen deeply in love with you. there are no words to express the feeling I I've had in my heart that you came into my life, and how you make every day so special. you are my life, my heart, my soul.

 

You are my best friend, my one true love, my one and only. I love you more today than I did yesterday, and I'll love you more tomorrow than I do today.

 

Loving you is the only thing that makes life worth living. Day by day, my love for you becomes overwhelming, and I can't handle it when I don't see or even talk to you every day.

 

A day without you in my life is like a day without sunshine, a day without food, or a day without air. I need you when I’m cold to keep me warm; I need you in the rain to keep me dry; I need you in my life to keep me happy. You make me feel wonderful. You give me strength when I just can't carry on and I truly treasure that. Every moment spent together is another one of my dreams coming true. 

 

I was scared to love you at first, out of fear that you would hurt me, but I did and it’s the best thing I’ve ever done. Now, the only fear I have is waking up and realizing it’s all a dream.

 

You are the most wonderful thing that has ever happened to me. Each moment that you and I spend together is so magical that I catch myself smiling for no reason at all.

 

I thought that I would never find a love that is as strong as ours, but now that we've found each other I know that you are the person I want to spend the rest of my life with, the person I want to marry, the person I want to have babies with, and the person I want to grow old with. 

 

Baby, you complete me. You make my life so amazing and I don't know how else to repay you but to love you just as much as you love me. The world is a better place to be because of you.

 

You make me feel beautiful. Thank you for giving me so much more than I ever could have wanted. I am so thankful for what we have, and for everything we will have. You are the only man I ever want to share my life with. I could never imagine what it would be like if we were to lose each other. I don't even want to think about it. All I want to think of is you. 

 

You are the love of my life. I love you, and I always will until the day I die. Hopefully, when that day comes, I will still have you by my side and yours will be the last face that I see.

 

When im older I’ll look back at the ways we argued about things that were so insignificant and we’ll laugh and know that our love was strong enough to overcome every argument. I just want you to know that I'm thankful that you came into my life and I will love you till the end of my days. My love for you will never fade, I’m still crazy about you, baby.

 

 i love you from the bottom of my heart, 

 

Love Always,

m.

Dear M.m,
I know you've only been gone a couple of hours, and you'll only be gone about 24 hours more,
but I'm sad. I don't like being away from you. I miss you so much already, and the phone roaming situation isn't helping matters.
*sigh*
This is so true: Missing someone isn’t about how long since you’ve seen them or the amount of time since you last talked. It’s about that very moment when you find yourself doing something and wishing they were right there by your side.

come home to me !!!
but I need you to have fun too!!!

love you double white choc chip

m.

Music to My Soul

It’s been awhile since I got on here to talk to you. First we had the most amazing holiday together, the first of many. Traveling with you, watching you sleep, waking up beside you was my greatest joy of the whole trip. We got to do all things together; we even celebrated your birthday together at one of your favourite restaurants which was beautiful. In the midst of the holiday, I made you sad which was the lowest point for me but I’m happy that despite everything, every argument, every disagreement we go through, we always pull out of it.

One of the hardest part was adjusting to the fact that I will sleep alone the day we got back, made me want to speed up time & start forever with you. Fast forward a bit to when you got to meet the whole clan, they absolutely adore you, it’s ridiculous. The head wants you by his side, and the neck wants you by her side. The joy on their face seeing that you… yes you are the reason why their offspring is happy and in love.

I had to run away on my day because you were not around, not because I couldn’t handle your absence but simply because I would have “died” knowing that you were not there to spend it with me. My birthday present OMG!!! got me dancing & screaming in ways I can’t explain. It’s amazing how you were miles away but still you made me smile endlessly in ways words can’t describe. How amazing it was to get home and hear the clan praying for you, my god. The effect you have on people you come across makes me realise that I’ve the most priceless jewel in the world.

Thank you for being the best genre of music to my soul. Thank you for giving me way more joy that music brings to me. Thank you for giving me a reason to dance. Thank you for been the constant music refreshing my soul. I thank God every day for creating you for me and for making our paths cross. I can’t wait to play this amazing tune with you forever.

Happy World Music Day Muffin.

Forever and a Day

                                                        M.M

Easter...

Easter, I always looked forward to it when I was little. Mummy used to make me paint eggs and we fried it at the end of the day. I always looked forward to the frying part, yes!!! I like food.

This Easter was different, doing absolutely nothing and the fact was I loved it. The best part was waking up in the middle of the night, rolling over to you and kissing you on your forehead and going back to sleep. The warmth to hold you throughout the night, the baby smell of your hair, the sparkling in your eyes, the way you sleep so innocently, the grunt in your breathe just because your nose was blocked, the way you suck & smile at the same time, everything you did while you slept was beautiful.

I prayed to God every time I woke up and looked at you by my side; how lucky did I get, like she choose me. Mummy look at your son, I have the most beautiful lady laying down by my side. I feel so blessed and I cannot complain.

I can’t wait for us to start our lives together. I love you to the moon and back. I will love you now, I will love you forever and I will love you to eternity 

Always & Forever

                                                           M.M

April Fool... but I Will Gladly be One for You

It was the craziest prank anyone has played on me. I was scared, hell I was freaked out and panicking. The peaceful thing was the only fact that I was going on this journey with you and no one else. Throughout the time, my head ran in different directions; how will we survive? What name will we give her since we have decided the boy’s name? Why is she stressing herself in the kitchen? She needs to eat right, screw Fitfam. When will she stop going to work? Will I be an awesome dad? How will we tell our parents? All these things were running in my head. The truth is, all I really cared about was I was going on this journey with you. It was quite hard to put it to words the emotions.

It’s been a long journey to get to this point. Sometimes I get lost in the thought of “why me. Among everyone in the world why did she pick me. Out of the 3 choices you had, you choose me. I look at you and I see my future, I wondered initially if I was good enough, Did I fit her “spec”? Should I fight for her? I made a mistake once by trusting someone else with you, I promise I will never let that happen again. You complete me. You said I looked calm, I was calm because I would have no one else but you. I blame myself for putting you through the pain but on the bright side, joy comes in the morning. I am sorry I was late to tell you how much I cared about you. I am sorry I let you dine with the wolves. I am sorry for every bad experience you had to go through. I wish all your pain was a prank and when I walked in I shouted "April Fool"

I mayn’t know a lot of things now but I know that I was scared to love but you came into my life and you made it so easy to give myself to you. I will fight to make sure that the blue flames of love will never die out. I want to spend forever with you. You are my every thought. You are perfect for me and I don't care what anyone says. I love you. I will love you more tomorrow. I will love you forever and always.  

Broken Promise...

Have you ever felt so disappointed in yourself? That deep burn in your guts knowing that you messed up. Not just to yourself but to the one you love, I feel that now. Maybe that’s why I am still awake. Maybe that’s why even when you were laying down beside me, I still felt the unrest in my soul.

Here is the truth. I NEVER make promises; not because I can’t keep them just for the mere fact that I don’t want to ever disappoint anyone. I made a promise to you to stick by you through thick and thin, through good and bad, through happy times and sad ones but I failed you today. I let my ego, arrogance and stupidity get in the way. I left you even when I should have stayed closer to you. I made you cry which broke my heart because I hate when I see you that way. To be honest, I don’t know what got me more, the disappointed look you had in your eyes or the demeanour about how irritated you felt to be around me or the pain that you were going through and I felt you were trying to bottle up because saying it would have made the matter worse. I feel so lost for the first time in this. This is the first time I felt so scared because I felt like you were about to leave and walk out. This is the first time I am crying within me and trust me it’s worse than crying out.  

M, I am sorry. I wish there were words to express how sorry I am. I am laying down in this emptiness, I can smell you on my sheets and I have mixed feelings: one, that I was almost close to losing that smell and two, how I miss you so much. I’m sorry if I ever made you feel you were not important to me because that is biggest disappointment I can ever show you.

You are the most important person to me and I don’t take that for granted. I love you so much and I never want you to feel like the way you felt today. I’m sorry I broke the promise I made to you. I wish I could take back the hands of time and correct this mistake. I am not a perfect man babe but God knows I am working hard towards it.

I love you so much and from the deepest part of my heart I am sorry I broke my promise.

The Last Piece...

Paradise...

It’s been 161 days since she said yes to me and let me tell you my experience. From the first day, I set my eyes on you, you have been all I can think about. You are my happiness, my joy, my hope. I hold you in my arms and I feel like I am home. Home went from being a place or a bed to you Muffin.

I know it’s been 24 days since I last wrote to you, this is not beautiful I have been busy. It’s basically because I have been drawn into your world and I never want to get out. I never understood or said the words “I love you” until I met you. Never did I understand those words but you give it meaning. You are my baby, my life. You are a one human constant in a life equation, you are my teacher, my best friend. You are my support system, my rare gem, my heartbeat, my strength, my laughter, my food buddie, my lover, my prayer partner, the future mother of our 2 kids, my wife, my girlfriend. You are my helper, my teammate. You are the most beautiful and most amazing lady I have met and I ask myself what I did or have done to deserve you.

You are everything I didn’t deserve and way more than I asked God for. I know sometimes I can be annoying and irritating but ever though you get angry and upset, you are patient with me. I get lost in you all the time. Your eyes are the only lights that I can let on all the days of my life. Your lips are addictive and my constant high, I will burn the rehab down if they should take me there to redeem myself from your lips. Your brains are the smartest, with the ideas that come from them. Your hands I can hold all day for the rest of my life. Your body is the most beautiful I have seen. I can stare at you all day without doing anything else and I will feel satisfied.

This 161 days have been a rollercoaster of emotions but the best part is this; I will do it again and again with no other person but you. Thank you for coming into my life and giving it meaning. Thank you for showing me that there is light at the end of the tunnel. Thank you for defining love and showing me that there is still good in the world. Thank you for seeing me even when I wanted to stay in the shadows. Thank you for loving me. 

Forever and a Year After

                                                                                                                         M.M.

Letter to Mummy...

I am sitting on this couch watching TV and all I can think about is mummy.

See mummy has a cold and a cough. I’m worried about her because she doesn’t look and behave like herself. I’m angry because I can’t even help her out or take the pain away. Son, I want to tell you something and it will probably be the first thing I teach you; pray you find a woman like your mummy who will make you understand what love is. Love really does exist. All you need to do is find the one who makes you understand it, breathe it, long for it, makes you fight for it and makes you understand that it is the best thing that will ever happen to you.

My princess, you have to learn and grow a heart as golden as my queen and your mother. To understand that whatever you go through in life, you can take the lessons and let it make you a better person, to understand that no matter what it is it should never get you down. Pick yourself up, dust yourself, adjust your outfit and move on.

And to my queen, I love you endlessly. Thank you for making me understand what love is. thank you for our beautiful kids. Thank you for teaching me that you have to fight and go to war if need be for what you love. Thank you for loving me and making me believe that fairy tales are real.

I love you more than the moistest. I love you in sickness and in health. I love you for richer and for poorer. I love you in good and bad times. I love you in happiness, in sadness, in angry, in moody, in hype, I love in all the moments you can’t describe.

I love you infinity times infinity. 

A Shades Of Beautiful Colours...

How will you think you have no colour? Have you looked at yourself?

You are like a rainbow, beautiful with all your colours. Remember how the rainbow was created, it was created because of a promise the Big Guy made to a such a new and wonderful creation. That’s what you have always been, a wonderful being. You have always had colours like the guy with the rainbow blazer or coat. Someone just said you only attract what you are or ready to handle. So never think your life was gray because do you know how many people came into your life, fought to even be in your life because they saw the beautiful colours within you.

The truth is this, I saw the colours radiating around you but I looked and I saw my former self and I knew that it was all a front. So, let me tell you something you already know; I used to smile on the outside but I cried on the inside, I used to have a colour around me but inside I was pitch black, so that’s why I could see beyond the colours radiating around you. Over the dark days, I found out that if you could change the inside, everything else will fall in place.  It’s funny how someone thought you like projects, maybe he was right but your last "project" was also going to fix you as well.

You can’t give what you don’t have so this is what I think happened; me on one hand gray on the outside and colourful on the inside and you colourful on the outside, grey on the inside. The moment we found each other, the exchange started to take place and that’s why from the moment we got talking there was no going back. I hear that opposite attract and that’s what happened. We became one, a perfect blend of colours both inside and outside. The more we got to know each other, the more the gray colour had to disappear. The more we laughed together, the more genuine it became, the more time we spent together I knew that this love would last forever. For the times, I looked into those eyes it was clear that I will never find anyone quite like you.

Love is like a river, a never-ending stream. It feels a rush of wind about to lift me up. When will the honeymoon phase pass? You are always like a lightbulb when you talk about her, they asked; My response was simple, I don’t think it will ever pass, we are too crazy about each other and the memories we want to create that it will take a lifetime for it to end. I wonder sometimes what were they thinking to let you go, why were they so selfish or blind not to see the grey parts and want to colour it out? I wonder sometimes by the time they wake up from their horror dream would they want to come back.

Here's the thing, I have lived a horrible dream & reality, I have had so much darkness not even gray, but pitch black, I have seen the light in you and I never want to go back. I know now that I’m home and I’m not going anywhere. My life right now is colourful and I like how we are growing constantly together. You are my happiness and every time I talk to you, look at you, hold you, kiss you, I know that I have found my future.

So, come a little closer baby, come a little closer, let me whisper in your ear. Let me tell you something softly, so that no one else will hear. What I want to tell you is private and is just between us two; just want you to know that you are my life, my everything, my present, my future and I love you now, I will love you more tomorrow, I will love you forever and I will always love you till our days on earth are over… and I will love you even beyond that as well

Technicolor

Before you, my world was grey.

Except, to my eyes, it was normal,

this lack of colour was acceptable, relatable; 

my world was a lack of all that was vibrant and right.

Then you entered my life, 

like mellow and relaxing music,

like a comfortable atmosphere,

you surrounded me and put me at ease,

thereby allowing snippets of colour to be injected into the monotony that was my day after day after day.

I heard your voice and listened to you laugh once again.

I read your words, they touched me and brought back memories buried deep within my subconscious.

You lifted me up,

placed me next to you and commenced to tell me things about myself that I had forgotten.

Things no one else had noticed, things no one else cared about.

More colours, more lights, into a world that had long since forgotten their meanings.

And I adored you;

I was amazed with your actions and your wit,

your love and your abilities.

And I saw you, took in the handsome smoothness of your face,

looked into the brown eyes that captivated me so.

I held your hand, was struck by the realization that my love was as solid for you as your hand in mine.

You guided me with love…

and the life of the colours I had dismissed, were brought back in full flow.

I was dizzy from watching them,

but you held me steady and delighted in seeing my childlike wonder in the new world we discovered.

I now live a life filled with a vast array of colours,

bright flashing lights,

a life that I enjoy so much and have grown  fond of…

a life with you.

When we're apart, I feel like I'm in hell,

comprised of cold and desolate plain, 

where there is nothing but grey and lifelessness to be seen,

I miss you with the fiercest passion.

And to alleviate the pain, I spend my time plotting.

Plotting my life with you.

♥

Daydreaming About You...

At first I said it was a lie that this feeling will pass and fade away. I kept denying it because I guess I’m not used to getting the girl or having anything good but I guess I was stubborn this time. Maybe because I was tired of losing, or maybe because you gave me a reason to fight or maybe I just had nothing to lose.

Passion would flare and foes would be made but I didn’t care all I wanted was to give my best and if I lost, I know I gave my all and I lost with my head held high. True love can change a rivers course, or pierce the strongest vault with ease. True love can turn coal into gold, or tame the storm to a calm breeze. Time has passed but still my feelings are the same today as they were on that very first day I set my eyes on you. The look on your face when we actually “first kissed”, the smile on my face when I opened the card saying “Boyfriend”, the first time I rolled over and you were beside me, the taste of your lips, the tender touch of your hands in mine.

He calls out my name; where did your mind go, he asked. I just smiled knowing that my reality was just as beautiful as I was daydreaming about you. (Based on a few hours ago)

Clock watching

My love, I cannot stand this.It is just too hard to be away from you. I am usually okay, but at times like this (especially tonight) it just becomes too much to bear. I cannot sleep tonight from thinking of you.

Each day that passes makes our love for each other grow stronger. Although I know it’s hard for us to be apart, distance means so little when you love someone so much. I know there is nothing that can keep us apart forever. Our desires will continue to stretch across any distance, over every mountain between us. 

Starting Chapter 1 With You

It’s literally going to be the best year yet. Last year you came into my life after the first quarter and the year ended on a high. Now imagine starting the year with you in my life. I look forward to new memories we would create, more mischief that we would do together, more outings, more laughter, more praying together. I look forward to all the moments we would spend together.

Thank you for making last year amazing. I’m sure this year will be better for the both of us by God’s grace. Thank you for giving my life meaning, for giving me so much happiness that I can ever imagine, for the love so unconditionally it overwhelms me most of the time. Here is my promise for the next 365 days; I will love you more than I did each and every day, we will fight and argue but it will never get part that day, I will be by your side through it all: good & bad, I will be your knight and shining armour and will go to war if you need me to, we will depend so much on the Big Guy this year that our love will grow stronger better than last year, I will always look at you like you are the only one I see, the most beautiful lady in the world, we will laugh, smile and cry if need be.

I love you so more babe and I want to use this medium to tell you Happy New Year Wifey

Ringing in the New Year

Happy New Year my darling M.m.

I'm so excited for what this new year has in store for us.

I'm so glad that I get to start this new chapter with you.

When I look back on 2016, I will always cherish the sweet memories that we shared,

The weird things we indulged in together,

The mischievous acts we performed, and the love you've given me.

I know you'll continue being an essential part of my life in 2017 and the rest of my life.
Your love has given me the courage to walk the less-travelled paths,
And to be the person I have always wanted to become.
Love can act in strange ways.
It made me laugh, it made me cry,
It gave me happiness and sometimes brought tears to my eyes,
But I know it will last till the end of time.
Today represents a wonderful start to another beautiful year,
Which would not have been possible with out your love and support.
Thank you for always showering your care on me, my sweetheart.
🍾here's to the next 365 days of  incorruptible love,
Contagious laughter, unprecedented success 
And joy that knows no bounds.
Happy New Year babe !